why is a douche?

hmm? who wants to explain to me why hes such an ass. im not sure if he knows hes an ass, i know that he didnt used to know, but now i feel like he knows that im absolutely head over heels for him, he knows he can do whatever he wants. its upsetting. he just doesnt know. at least i know he cares, and i know why he acts the way he does too. i know exactly why, and its stupid. i know why he ended our… “fun” i know it all. and im pissed. he still makes me cry. hes the main reason i cry. i cry when im mad and i cry because of him. god help me.