agustus.

i dont think he understands that i need him, that he makes me happy and thats hard to do. and that i feel terrible for the things that ive done. and you cant just go have a great time today then take it all back 30 minutes afterward. you wouldnt have done it if you didnt want to, so why did you do it? hmm? it doesnt make sense. i need him in my life, i need him to look at me the way he did today, and the way he did 5 months ago. i need that in my life.